I wish...

I wish i was more honest with myself.
I wish i could make decisions.
I wish i could slow down more in life.
I wish i had more motivation.
I wish i had more energy.
I wish i had a goal and direction.
I wish i was more confident and less shy.
I wish i had a job to travel exotic places.
I wish i was of more help to the world.
I wish i wasn't so up and down.
I wish i didn't see life as a struggle.
I don't want to feel like i'm fighting
against whatever it is i'm fighting against.
I guess i do, to make sure its there.
I want to be more free.
I want to be happy.
Happiness is not a goal,
not somthing you work hard to have.
It's just being.
Happiness is right now.